The Waiting Room

Jude 20+21 says “But you, dear friends, by building yourselves up in your most Holy faith and praying in the Holy Spirit keep yourselves in God’s love as you wait for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ to bring you to eternal life”

January tested my faith. It tested where my belief is and where my trust stands. I believed and am believing for a promise that God has not yet delivered on. Something I believed was going to happen last year and came nowhere close. Then, crept in anger and impatience and pure frustration, because I believed that it would happen when, in fact, God had not yet ordained.

Colossians 3:15- “Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts since as members of one body you have been called to peace. And be thankful”

I am silly for trying to take matters into my own hands and push the agenda to my timeline, for many different reasons. I went back to God with so many questions and left with no answers. Just silence. Where is the God that answers promises, that gives you your hearts desires… Where is that God / Where is my promise.? The frustration was building and became my overflow, I was no longer living in the peace of Gods plan but living in the turmoil of my own. I desire so badly for the fruit of a promise and prayer that I was off the path and didn’t even realise.

Colossians 2: 6+7 “So then just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, rooted and uplifted strengthened in your faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness”

I am blessed to have a very wise and spirit-filled mother who so gently guided me back to the waiting room and spoke encouragement over this season of waiting. She so lovingly reminded me that it is my job to wait on the Lord, to wait till He speaks clearly, and to wait for his timing to bring the breakthrough.

I lost my strength, I lost my peace, I lost myself in chasing a dream and desire that only led me to the wrong path each time in my past.

In that time I was no longer chasing after God daily and burying myself in His word. Quite the opposite actually. I felt as though I couldn’t come to God or open his word without feeling guilty for straying off. I also felt mad at God , mad at Him for reopening this desire and not fulfilling it. I was and still am frustrated at this but I am leaning into God instead of pushing against Him. The scriptures throughout this post speak so much to my heart in this time of waiting. They have grounded me to come back to His plan for my life and leave my own agenda at the door.

Ephesians 6:10-12 “Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armour of God so that you can take a stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against blood and flesh but against the rulers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms”

A lack of discipline, laziness and unbelief are the things that get in our way  of receiving the things God has for us.

If you are losing your patience, if you feel God is no longer listening or maybe that He forgot about you, I am here to encourage you that our emotions are liars and the Word of God is truth and never changes. If He has a promise and a plan, let me tell you no man, woman, child or spirit can stop that plan from coming to fruition. We can get in our own way however, and become like the Israelites who walked for 40 years in the wilderness when in fact it should’ve only taken 11 days.

Get out of your own way, get back in the waiting room and ask God to reveal the lessons of the waiting room. Get into his word and let Him speak to your heart.

Psalm 119:105 “Your Word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. By your words I can see where I am going; they throw a beams of light on my dark path” 

I pray you are encouraged and that the Lord’s peace be with you always.

Be blessed. Be a blessing.

Love Sonny xx